I'm mad, and I'm lazy. Not to quote Weezy exactly, but what I do everyday from 7:00-4:30 is my job. From 4:30 on is my life. But when my job starts interfering with my life, that becomes a problem. Since when did it become cool to act as a babysitter for a 21 year old who is completely capable of self-maintaining. This 21 year old is no different than any other 21 year old in the world. When this 21 year old wakes up, this 21 year old is tired. When this 21 year old is at work, this 21 year old wants to be left alone. Why is that such a surprising concept? OHH wait I've got it! This 21 year old is surrounded by (and this excludes anyone who's close to this 21 year old) a bunch of f**ks who couldn't handle the civilian world. Why does this 21 year old exclude the people the 21 year old is close to? Because #1 this 21 year old can, and #2, this 21 year old knows each and every one of their goals. #3 They don't watch over this 21 year old's shoulder all day to see if this 21 year old can spell this 21 year old's name right. So what makes this 21 year old different from any other fu*k who joined this organization of Super Nannies? This 21 year old is fu**ing talented, and this 21 year old is so close to fame the 21 year old muthafu**a can taste it!
So I'm 21 years old. I haven't blogged since I was 20 years old.
Moving on..
Back to being lazy. I swear music is my life..but why do I not write every night? If something was your life, why wouldn't you do it all the time? New work ethic in the works..1-2 songs a day even if there are no instrumentals. Yes, still no producers that can match my hustle.
Had a show for "Poetry Night" last Friday. It went very well. I performed "Deliver Me" and "iWorld". Both old joints but very powerful and effective. Been gettin mad props since then. Still working on "iamnotcharleshamilton!" and also "You Are Not Me vol. 1". Shouts to Finesse! Almost that time homie for the world to see what they've been missing.
Time to start working on life.
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!----___Dash___----!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
At Most I'm Just..
And its time once again to venture to the center of the mind an find out exactly what's going on in this head of mine. April 5th, DeeDee leaves...April 7th, she's still here..? I admit that I'm not completely heart broken that we've missed 2 flights to get her outta here, but at the same I am. It's been an interesting week already..
Cerebellum.
Not too much music has been in the works the past few days, just been enjoying life for a little while. Got a meeting with a cat named Giann, who I hear worked with Kanye and J-Lo so let's see how it goes. It's the night before my 21st birthday. 21 years of tears, joy, and pain. Why is 66.6 percent of my life hard? 21 is not such an important age per se in Italy due to the fact the drinking age is 16 here. But it does represent the age of a true adult despite what they say about the age 18. I see it as a time to start over again...but then again, that's too cliche-ish. I never understood why January 1st, and December 25th, and birthdays have to be the days for change. You can change anyday you want. I just happen to realize that I should be transitioning into adulthood by now. I've had fun being a kid the past 20 years no matter how many hardships I faced. I've been thru virtually anything you can think of, virtually. Pause. The number 21..who decided it was a decent age to announce your adult status?
Chill.
Don't let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
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!----___Dash___---!
Cerebellum.
Not too much music has been in the works the past few days, just been enjoying life for a little while. Got a meeting with a cat named Giann, who I hear worked with Kanye and J-Lo so let's see how it goes. It's the night before my 21st birthday. 21 years of tears, joy, and pain. Why is 66.6 percent of my life hard? 21 is not such an important age per se in Italy due to the fact the drinking age is 16 here. But it does represent the age of a true adult despite what they say about the age 18. I see it as a time to start over again...but then again, that's too cliche-ish. I never understood why January 1st, and December 25th, and birthdays have to be the days for change. You can change anyday you want. I just happen to realize that I should be transitioning into adulthood by now. I've had fun being a kid the past 20 years no matter how many hardships I faced. I've been thru virtually anything you can think of, virtually. Pause. The number 21..who decided it was a decent age to announce your adult status?
Chill.
Don't let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
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!----___Dash___---!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
When do you learn where to stop? How do you know when it's the perfect time to cut loose? 2 of many questions that float thru my head on a gloomy evening in Aviano, Italy. I've been questioning my goals and my dreams all week with this rap sh1t. DeeDee is in the room right now, yet I'm still not sure where I want to go. i don't even think she is all knowing in where she wants to go. It's a struggle that I'll fight the rest of the night. I couldn't imagine a world in which I didn't have an impact with words. At the same time, I watch it everyday. I remember a few posts ago I mentioned Responsibility. That word creeps ever closer to me by the day. Am I readt to be responsible for another human being? Let alone two human beings.
And now we "Michael Jackson's complexion...lighten up" the mood.
I didn't make this blog to complain about this life I call a life, nor did I make it to boast and brag. All in all, I am just a normal person with strange tendencies. So with that said, I want to change my last name to so-and-so. lol. Then I would be the prime example for any situation involving what another person said. I am the default. "Well I heard so-and-so say this". That's when you pop up outta nowhere behind em and say no you didn't, and run away.
Okay enough of that. Back to Michael Blackson.
I've been fu**ing up alot lately. It could be nervousness, but I'm not sure. Pause.
As I watch her listen to her ipod, she looks unhappy. And no matter what I do, she is going to be unhappy the whole night. Maybe I should get off here and attempt to make it better. Until next time..
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!----___Dash___----!
P.S. Tonight will suck. I could lose it all.
And now we "Michael Jackson's complexion...lighten up" the mood.
I didn't make this blog to complain about this life I call a life, nor did I make it to boast and brag. All in all, I am just a normal person with strange tendencies. So with that said, I want to change my last name to so-and-so. lol. Then I would be the prime example for any situation involving what another person said. I am the default. "Well I heard so-and-so say this". That's when you pop up outta nowhere behind em and say no you didn't, and run away.
Okay enough of that. Back to Michael Blackson.
I've been fu**ing up alot lately. It could be nervousness, but I'm not sure. Pause.
As I watch her listen to her ipod, she looks unhappy. And no matter what I do, she is going to be unhappy the whole night. Maybe I should get off here and attempt to make it better. Until next time..
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!----___Dash___----!
P.S. Tonight will suck. I could lose it all.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Inner Voice (In Her Voice)..OD
(1) As I sit here in a room full of familiar, yet anonymous faces, bumping "Well Isn't This Awkward", I realize how uneventful my life truly is. (2) It has to be a crime for someone to be this lonely and sad THIS much. (3) Music for me is my adrenaline, my heart beat, my whole meaning of existence, yet I have failed to meet anyone who understands the importance of making a difference through words. No disrespect to my niggas, but that's what it is.
(4) I'm working hard on some new stuff to put out, providing, I find some decent production. Maybe I should do an acapella/spoken word joint :) Who knows!
And now we go hard.
(5) As of right now, I'm officially a mute. (?) I know right. I'm just tired of talkin to niggas. They could careless what you have to say anyways, so (Cam'Ron) at the end of the day, whats the point? I learned so many lessons over this past weekend, it almost scares me. (6) I reside in the present, therefore I am gifted. Half of you simple minded folks out there will refuse 2/never understand what I ramble about in these blogs, and that's your loss, it really is. But back to ODin. (5) I'm becoming a mute in a few senses. I will for the most part only speak when spoken to, on some Fresh Prince Rush Week Carlton speaking out of line sh1t. I love this blog. I wish I had more time to write on it. Actually I do, my world is just THAT not cool. "I once was a loser, now I'm older still the same loser."
(7) Shouts to Charles Hamilton and his new video, sporting the skull candy pink fur headphones that I just so happen to have. Kids a genius nonetheless.
(8) Shouts to Mikey Dot, They Mad. Shouts to Finesse. 03 and forever. Shouts to DeeDee, who will remain DeeDee until the folks who truly want to know me figure out who she really is. (9) My love is locked down. She is such a good officer.
(10) I'm Not A Rapper, I'm Just Bored is completed, just trying to decide if it's important enough to put up on my myspace page. Track listing is as follows;
1. I'm Not A Rapper intro
2. Aggaws Elik Su (No One's On The Corner)
3. Like A Star
4. Walkin In The Rain
5. Turnin Her On
6. Runawaywithme
7. Back 2 Business
8. Realish Talk
9. Send Her My Love
10. Breathe Tomorrow
(11) New mixtape in the works as of 45 seconds ago. "I Am Not Charles Hamilton"...for the speculators (other than Mikey) who think I'm copying dude cause I like his music and I wear pink. Truth is, I'm not trying to copy, but his style does appeal. Definitely my favorite rapper right now along with Drake, Lil Wayne, Myself, Mikey Dot. Jay-Z..until you release BP3, you will stay at #2 lmao.
(12) Dead ass tho, I just went from being in a "nobody cares about me" mode to..."I'm ready to get signed" mode. All because of the main ingredient that is the 3rd thing I talked about here. Overthink and go look.
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!----___Dash___----!
(4) I'm working hard on some new stuff to put out, providing, I find some decent production. Maybe I should do an acapella/spoken word joint :) Who knows!
And now we go hard.
(5) As of right now, I'm officially a mute. (?) I know right. I'm just tired of talkin to niggas. They could careless what you have to say anyways, so (Cam'Ron) at the end of the day, whats the point? I learned so many lessons over this past weekend, it almost scares me. (6) I reside in the present, therefore I am gifted. Half of you simple minded folks out there will refuse 2/never understand what I ramble about in these blogs, and that's your loss, it really is. But back to ODin. (5) I'm becoming a mute in a few senses. I will for the most part only speak when spoken to, on some Fresh Prince Rush Week Carlton speaking out of line sh1t. I love this blog. I wish I had more time to write on it. Actually I do, my world is just THAT not cool. "I once was a loser, now I'm older still the same loser."
(7) Shouts to Charles Hamilton and his new video, sporting the skull candy pink fur headphones that I just so happen to have. Kids a genius nonetheless.
(8) Shouts to Mikey Dot, They Mad. Shouts to Finesse. 03 and forever. Shouts to DeeDee, who will remain DeeDee until the folks who truly want to know me figure out who she really is. (9) My love is locked down. She is such a good officer.
(10) I'm Not A Rapper, I'm Just Bored is completed, just trying to decide if it's important enough to put up on my myspace page. Track listing is as follows;
1. I'm Not A Rapper intro
2. Aggaws Elik Su (No One's On The Corner)
3. Like A Star
4. Walkin In The Rain
5. Turnin Her On
6. Runawaywithme
7. Back 2 Business
8. Realish Talk
9. Send Her My Love
10. Breathe Tomorrow
(11) New mixtape in the works as of 45 seconds ago. "I Am Not Charles Hamilton"...for the speculators (other than Mikey) who think I'm copying dude cause I like his music and I wear pink. Truth is, I'm not trying to copy, but his style does appeal. Definitely my favorite rapper right now along with Drake, Lil Wayne, Myself, Mikey Dot. Jay-Z..until you release BP3, you will stay at #2 lmao.
(12) Dead ass tho, I just went from being in a "nobody cares about me" mode to..."I'm ready to get signed" mode. All because of the main ingredient that is the 3rd thing I talked about here. Overthink and go look.
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!----___Dash___----!
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Runawaywithme
This is what it sounds like, when we ride on our hennessy....*CRASH*
Definitely have been grindin the past few days with music. Got 4 tracks done and they should be on my myspace page within the next few weeks.
Met up with an artist by the name of Blackberry Jones. This girl is serious! Got a flow from hell dead ass. Looking forward to working with her in the future. Of course Mikey dot and myself have been comin up with new things for ya ears. Hit his music page up, the boy is sick.
Short entry today. But its grind time..less blogging.
Breathe Tomorrow, cause there's no hope for today.
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!----___Dash___----!
Definitely have been grindin the past few days with music. Got 4 tracks done and they should be on my myspace page within the next few weeks.
Met up with an artist by the name of Blackberry Jones. This girl is serious! Got a flow from hell dead ass. Looking forward to working with her in the future. Of course Mikey dot and myself have been comin up with new things for ya ears. Hit his music page up, the boy is sick.
Short entry today. But its grind time..less blogging.
Breathe Tomorrow, cause there's no hope for today.
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!----___Dash___----!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Another Day, Another Euro
Like a star. I stay in the night skies, shining with my peers. But we are not a class.
We are individually the hottest things in space. People think we gas em a lot, but truthfully, we have a purpose deeper than any hole you try to suck us into. Sometimes I find myself finding it difficult to stay in formation with my peers because I'm so out-standing. Everyone is a star in their own sense of the nature...and I too am a star. You are a star. But do not forget, I'm the North Star. I'm the brightest mind you'll ever see. If you find yourself lost in your own reality, follow me.
Deep sh1t right? I've always considered myself to be a star in the darkness. The world is in one of its darkest eras right now and only the true stars will shine through the blackness. The economy is a joke and everybody living on your planet knows that. I watch your news from the HQ of my galaxy and truthfully your suffering is not deserved. But I don't notice how bad the economy really is by watching the human race. Why? Because the economy is a joke, and people are smiling through the hardships. Shouts to the human race for 2pac'n your way through this.
On another note I'm doing just fine as if anyone were to notice any difference. A key word for me today was responsibility. Because not only am I responsible for myself, DeeDee is very close to entering my world for eternity, and she will soon be my responsibility. I Love DeeDee to the fullest extent that my arteries and veins can move the blood to and from my beatboxing heart. With matrimony across the corner, one can only realize exactly how far from perfection one really is without the one reason for living. I am indeed a U without DeeDee. I am an O when she is with me, and I cannot picture a day where I could survive without talking to her. So DeeDee without you my progress is completely mixed up. I O U. Let me stop there before it gets deep again.
Shouts to Semuh Breeze and VIP Ent! Prepare yourselves for a different style very soon. I'm already not a rapper anymore so how much different can it get? Only time will speak on that. To everyone reading this blog who really and truly believes in me, nothin but love for you. I received a friend request today on my myspace page and the message told me I could be the most gifted writer in the 21st Century. Along with another that just said I'm fu**ing awesome. Both have the effect I need to raise my devil to the heavens. I'm starting from the 9th Circle of Hell at the moment..trying to progress through Mountain Purgatory and extend past the 9th sphere of Heaven. Dante was really at his peak when he wrote that sh1t. If you can't follow this star, google The Divine Comedy and see if it doesn't suck your heart...my bad..blow your mind.
At the moment I'm exercising my brain muscles and I'm just warming up. Stay tuned in for another episode of.."Mind of a Madman, Thoughts of a Lunatic, Life of a Star" to be aired on Dash network soon!
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!----___Dash___----!
P.S. Shouts to Finesse. I can feel that our sound is gonna be universal in no time homie. I gotcha over here. Just prepare them over there. Stay Up!
Okay really...
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!----___Dash___----!
We are individually the hottest things in space. People think we gas em a lot, but truthfully, we have a purpose deeper than any hole you try to suck us into. Sometimes I find myself finding it difficult to stay in formation with my peers because I'm so out-standing. Everyone is a star in their own sense of the nature...and I too am a star. You are a star. But do not forget, I'm the North Star. I'm the brightest mind you'll ever see. If you find yourself lost in your own reality, follow me.
Deep sh1t right? I've always considered myself to be a star in the darkness. The world is in one of its darkest eras right now and only the true stars will shine through the blackness. The economy is a joke and everybody living on your planet knows that. I watch your news from the HQ of my galaxy and truthfully your suffering is not deserved. But I don't notice how bad the economy really is by watching the human race. Why? Because the economy is a joke, and people are smiling through the hardships. Shouts to the human race for 2pac'n your way through this.
On another note I'm doing just fine as if anyone were to notice any difference. A key word for me today was responsibility. Because not only am I responsible for myself, DeeDee is very close to entering my world for eternity, and she will soon be my responsibility. I Love DeeDee to the fullest extent that my arteries and veins can move the blood to and from my beatboxing heart. With matrimony across the corner, one can only realize exactly how far from perfection one really is without the one reason for living. I am indeed a U without DeeDee. I am an O when she is with me, and I cannot picture a day where I could survive without talking to her. So DeeDee without you my progress is completely mixed up. I O U. Let me stop there before it gets deep again.
Shouts to Semuh Breeze and VIP Ent! Prepare yourselves for a different style very soon. I'm already not a rapper anymore so how much different can it get? Only time will speak on that. To everyone reading this blog who really and truly believes in me, nothin but love for you. I received a friend request today on my myspace page and the message told me I could be the most gifted writer in the 21st Century. Along with another that just said I'm fu**ing awesome. Both have the effect I need to raise my devil to the heavens. I'm starting from the 9th Circle of Hell at the moment..trying to progress through Mountain Purgatory and extend past the 9th sphere of Heaven. Dante was really at his peak when he wrote that sh1t. If you can't follow this star, google The Divine Comedy and see if it doesn't suck your heart...my bad..blow your mind.
At the moment I'm exercising my brain muscles and I'm just warming up. Stay tuned in for another episode of.."Mind of a Madman, Thoughts of a Lunatic, Life of a Star" to be aired on Dash network soon!
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!----___Dash___----!
P.S. Shouts to Finesse. I can feel that our sound is gonna be universal in no time homie. I gotcha over here. Just prepare them over there. Stay Up!
Okay really...
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!----___Dash___----!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha..Check out this bizarre
Mixture of n1ggas in the room. Shouts to Bobby and his EGO Trippin blog.
I too learned a valuable lesson last night. Sketchy mufu**as are indeed everywhere. All pun intended. Although it would've been fun to embarrass the top of a newspaper (headliner), I can understand why me and MIKEY Dot sat the bench last night. Sh1t if I was "Richard Nixon" facing "George Washington" I would definitely kill George's opportunity to "veto" my career. Shouts to MIKEY Dot..."All those mustard a$$ n1ggas need to catch up."
On a different note, I think it's about time I go hard on every track and not bullsh1t so much. "I'm Not A Rapper, I'm Just Bored" is slowly developing. I think I'm only putting 10 tracks on there. Keep your headphones ready for the experience of a lifetime though. Real soon. Like really soon.
5 Things To Do This Year:
1. Do me, and only me.
2. Breakout in the Aviano community and become a juggernaut of the hip hop scene.
3. Stop being so fu**ing weird all the time.
4. Kill myself if #3 ever happens.
5. Put out a classic album this summer.
President Washington signing out.
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!----___Dash___----!
I too learned a valuable lesson last night. Sketchy mufu**as are indeed everywhere. All pun intended. Although it would've been fun to embarrass the top of a newspaper (headliner), I can understand why me and MIKEY Dot sat the bench last night. Sh1t if I was "Richard Nixon" facing "George Washington" I would definitely kill George's opportunity to "veto" my career. Shouts to MIKEY Dot..."All those mustard a$$ n1ggas need to catch up."
On a different note, I think it's about time I go hard on every track and not bullsh1t so much. "I'm Not A Rapper, I'm Just Bored" is slowly developing. I think I'm only putting 10 tracks on there. Keep your headphones ready for the experience of a lifetime though. Real soon. Like really soon.
5 Things To Do This Year:
1. Do me, and only me.
2. Breakout in the Aviano community and become a juggernaut of the hip hop scene.
3. Stop being so fu**ing weird all the time.
4. Kill myself if #3 ever happens.
5. Put out a classic album this summer.
President Washington signing out.
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!----___Dash___----!
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